i hate being mixed, so much. i hate the way i look and the fact i don’t look one or the other. i hate that when i tell people i’m mixed and they ask with what i feel guilty telling them what i am. i feel like i’m lying, because i don’t feel that way. i don’t feel white hispanic or asian. i wish i was just one thing, and that it wouldn’t be so complicated explaining where i was from. why i have a caucasian nose and skin but my eyes are some what cuban and filipino. how when i tell people i’m a certain thing they always tell me i look fully of one, or how i don’t look like one at all. what am i? when i tell my mom that this bothers me. she tells me that her brother went through the same thing cause he’s a mixed american too. but it’s not that. when i was younger i didn’t understand the concept of being mixed and wanted to fit in. so i told everyone i was fully white and got embarrassed when i walked out my car with my moms spanish music playing. when i was super young the kids would tease me cause of my eyes and how “puffy” and “small” they were. i grew older feeling bad about my eye shape. the worst part is, when i was finally happy with who i was, people would tell me i was faking being mixed with certain things. which wasn’t fair considering the times i had walked into class being called names for my nationality. i’m fine with who i am, and i know i’m white cuban filipino, but i wish i didn’t feel so bad about being those things.